I’m going crazeeeee! I am now blur and dunno what to do. I had been doing my research a year plus now. I am supposed to get my subjects (students of music) and test on them since last year October. Since then, I had been writing to numerous schools of Music, such as UCSI, ICOM, TAR, UPM, HELP etc and all my proposals had been unsuccessful there. However, I was really happy when my sis intro me to this lecturer from UNIMAS who was really interested in my proposal and wanted to help. So, I wrote in to the DEAN and my proposal got accepted in MAY.
Last nite, however, I chatted with my friend from UNIMAS online, and was told classes had already commenced! You see, I had expected classes to start end of next month, as told to me by the lecturer, but seems there had been a mix up of dates. She had also bneen away for more than a month on holiday, therefore I had not been able to discuss much. I had it all planned out that I should book my ticket to go back end of next month to collect my data, but now I feel frustrated. Coz if I could still make it, I would need to fly back immediately, but I’m not well prepared. I don’t even have the lecturer’s lesson plans to do anything with my module. I feels like I’m in one of those nightmares whereby I missed my exam or something!
I am so , so frustrated. I really don’t know where to start, where to go, what to do! God! Give me strength! I can’t do this on my own! HELP HELP HELP! Send help from above! I just can’t wait for another year to get this done. It is all my fault! I don’t know why I didn’t check the dates earlier. Is it too late? Is there no hope? Is that not the best place for the research? God where are you leading me? Please let me know…. 🙁